Lead me not in to temptation.

How does that quote go? Lead me not in to temptation; I can find the way myself". I like that one. I always find it, or it finds me. It's lurking around every corner, in every shadow, and once every fleeting moment of 15 seconds. It's there. It's always there. It's like this drug, it's addicting. I can't get enough, but it makes me even sicker in the end. I've never been strong in that aspect. I'm so weak I can't carry a tune in that department. My knees get soft, and I want to fall to the floor.

A temptation is an act that looks appealing to an individual. It
is usually used to describe acts with negative connotations and as
such, tends to lead a person to regret such actions, for various reasons: legal, social, psychological (including feeling guilt),
health, economic, etc. Temptation also describes the coaxing or
inducing a person into committing such an act, by manipulation or
otherwise of curiosity, desire or fear of loss.

But for the first time in my life. I am strong. I face temptation head on, and I tell it. I am not weak. You will not conquer me this time. You will not make me think this is what I am, or who I am, or even who I want to be. I am happy with what I have and the temptation, is just that.. it's full of regret, anxiety, depression, all the things I need no more of. So here I say it.. TEMPTATION BE GONE!! I am the one who is in control, and it is I who will make the decision to overcome. I am done with you. I'm happy with what I have, and the grass is NEVER greener...

The Rooster

Since we just celebrated the Chinese New Year, Ashley had been learning about it at school. She brought home a cheat sheet of the Chinese Animal Zodiac. She spent the evening studying it, and figuring out which animal each of us are.

She is a snake. I a Rooster, Lauryn is a Monkey, Logan a pig and Josh is a snake also. That was last week.

Tonight we were sitting down at dinner, and the Chinese Zodiac came up again. Ashley needed a refresher on what my Zodiac was. I told her I was a Rooster, and Josh piped up with "that's because your cocky." The conversation went a little something like this..

Josh: "That's right, your mom should be a Rooster, cause she's cocky".
Ashley: "What does cocky mean?"
Josh: "It means your big, and tough, and mean, and you know it."
Ashley: "Well, you should be a Rooster then."..




ahh, out of the mouths of babes.